Coffee meet-up

I’m meeting up with my ex soon—still feels strange to call her that. Anyway, we decided to meet for coffee. Well, to be honest, it was more my idea. I needed some form of connection since I’ve been feeling quite alone here. I assume she has her own reasons for agreeing, which are probably different from mine. Maybe she still cares a bit about my mental state, or perhaps it has to do with me being cooperative about the house. I don’t want to speculate too much about her motives, though.

During our meetup, I plan to tell her about my future plans. I haven’t fully committed to these yet, but they seem likely given my current situation, which feels unsustainable. I’m seriously considering quitting my job at the end of January and spending the entire month of February in Montreal. The idea is to keep my studio here and rent an Airbnb there for that month. While in Montreal, I’d focus on resetting and figuring out my next steps—maybe applying for a Canadian passport, opening a bank account, and looking for jobs. I might also explore job opportunities in Michigan, though I’m not optimistic about finding something fulfilling here.

The plan I’m leaning toward is to quit my job, spend February in Montreal, then return for March and April. After that, I’d repeat the process: spending May in Montreal, then coming back for June and July, and heading back to Montreal in August. I’d return again in September and October. Of course, this could all change depending on how things unfold—if I find a job in Montreal, my plans would shift significantly. On the other hand, if I somehow found a fulfilling job in Michigan (though I highly doubt it), that could also alter my course.

Part of what’s driving this is my career dissatisfaction here. I wouldn’t even call it a career. Back in Quebec, I was an educational program coordinator at a multimedia school for 14 years, and I taught part-time at Concordia University for 19 years. I covered programming, graphic design, multimedia, and more. Here in Michigan, the best I’ve been able to do is work as a behavior technician, then a program coordinator (essentially managing behavior technicians), and now as a clinical onboarding and credentialing specialist—a fancy title for a job that feels pretty empty.

This lack of career fulfillment is a major reason I’m thinking about going back to Montreal. Maybe I could get back into teaching, or honestly, anything would feel better than what I’m doing here. Anyway, that’s where I’m at right now.

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