But I know that I need to do this!
“The journey of self-discovery and healing is not about becoming someone new, but about gently letting go of what isn’t you so you can fully embrace who you’ve always been.”
– Unknown
Right now, I’m not in a good place mentally. There are good days and bad days, but this has been going on for a few months now. I can pinpoint it starting around September 27, 2024, though my mental struggles have been with me for much longer than that. I’m trying to find some peace, but it’s incredibly hard. I’ve been having dark thoughts, which really scare me.
I think the core of my struggle is feeling very alone. I’m on the path to a divorce, and it’s turned my world upside down. But if I’m being honest, I don’t think the divorce is the root cause. This sense of hopelessness has been lingering in my life for a long time.
One of the reasons I feel so alone is that, in many ways, I truly am. I’m now living in Detroit, in a studio apartment in what could probably be called a rough neighborhood. The apartment itself isn’t bad, but everything else feels foreign—new city, new state, new country—and I’m completely alone. No family, no partner, no friends. And that isolation is what’s crushing me the most.
I think this is enough to share for now.